Wednesday 2 December 2009

Sol Invictus

"Rise up, rise up,
Ever victorious,
Low the tide, Low the light,
Comes the sun again"
~ Thea Gilmore, Sol Invictus

I heard this song for the first time on Tuesday, when Thea and the Sense of Sound choir performed it on stage in Manchester. It was beautiful - magical and spine tingling. A hymn for the sun, a call of longing, a promise that Spring will come. It brought back the same sensations as when I visited Newgrange, a monument that was built 5,000 years ago in the Boyne Valley in Ireland. Sol Invictus took me back to standing in the chamber looking up at the stones that had been placed there, the designs that had been lovingly carved, by the hands of people now thousands of years gone. It was filled with an atmosphere of mystery, a place of magic and spirituality, calm but overwhelmingly exhilarating and moving.

I was deeply touched by the idea that people would devote themselves to such a monumental task, that those who began to build would not have lived to see its completion. They invested so much, and were inspired to create something that would long outlive them. Not a legacy for themselves so that their names would be remembered, but a monument for the ages.



The next time I will see Thea Gilmore play will be December 21st - the Winter Solstice, the shortest day, after which the hours of darkness gradually shorten and the days lengthen. There are still months of cold, frost but we we can start to look forward again.

To picnics in the park. To days spent shivering on the beach because the weather forecast said temperatures would get above 20 degrees. Even now, we worship the sun - Maybe some things haven't changed that much in 5,000 years. Of course we'll never know why several generations of people devoted their lives to building Newgrange, but legend says the mound was dedicated to Dagha, the sun god of pre-Christian Ireland.

Built by hand using 200,000 tonnes of rock, a long sloping passage leading into a vast chamber, beautiful and cathedral-like, the walls narrowing up to a single slab 20 feet above. Alcoves with flat stones were the final resting places for the remains of the dead.

The people of the Boyne valley must have known by heart the Sun's journey across the sky. Newgrange tomb is precisely astronomically aligned, so that at sunrise on the winter solstice each year, something magical can occur. On this day, a shaft of sunlight enters through a large opening above the entrance (the roof box) and pierces the inner passageway. The passage is perfectly aligned and angled to allow the beam of light to travel slowly upwards and into the chamber, illuminating the strange stone basin and spiral carvings at the back of the chamber. A handful of observers get to see the real event (and only if the weather conditions are right), but visitors are allowed a reconstruction with the aid of electricity! Not quite as good as the real thing, but still it manages to convey what a strange simple wonder it must be to witness.No one can tell us why Newgrange was built to welcome the dawn of the solstice each year. But one theory is that the spirals are symbols of the journey to the next world - maybe they believed the light would bless the remains of the dead, and transport their souls to the afterlife. Maybe they believed it was a signal that they would not be damned to eternal winter, they had been blessed with a promise that long days would return, the light and warmth bringing with them a blooming of lush greeness and a season of plenty.

We can imagine them, the leaders and elders of the Boyne valley, ascending the hill. It is early, eerily silent, and still dark as night although morning is approaching. The vast mound of the tomb is just a faint sillouette, barely visible in the gloom. Solomnly, they approach the entrance, rest their hands on the threshold stone, elaborately carved with spirals, concentric circles and diamond shapes, then step up and over into the entrance of the tomb. No tell tale scorch marks remain to tell us that fire lit their steps, they feel their way down the passage to the main chamber of the tomb. In the darkness they circle around the walls of the chamber, then sit down & wait in silence, hardly daring to breathe. Waiting for the dawn. Will the sun rise?

Slowly, slowly, a lighter spot begins to emerge on the floor, far up the passageway. It deepens gradually, spreads into a beam of pure gold that creeps up the passage to flood the chamber with light. Dawn. The Sun God has risen again, he has heard our call. He has come to take away the souls of our departed, who have waited so patiently here in the dark. The bringer of light, of warmth, of new beginnings, of hope.

http://www.knowth.com/winter-solstice.htm


New York City can be so pretty......

A few of my favourite snaps from my birthday trip.... lots more at http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=140222&id=584741155&l=991f433b1f



Monday 9 November 2009

I found it on a cold and November day...

Still recovering from a wonderful fortnight to celebrate, or maybe distract myself from, hitting the ‘30’ milestone, that started with a lovely family gathering (celebrating my Dad’s 60th), lead to Dublin and finally to New York City.

In short, 2 weeks filled with my favourite places, my favourite music and my favourite people. Lots of photos on their way.

Thursday 15 October 2009

Life in a Stereo World

Have rather neglected the blogging lately. Lots of exciting gigs over the summer: Tori Amos, Okkervil River, Josh Ritter (twice), Ray LaMontagne, Bruce Springsteen & The GasLight Anthem. What fun!

I really enjoy rambling here when I get into it, but my time management seems to have gone to pot lately. How do people manage to work full time, take regular exercise, keep a house clean & tidy, have a social life and fulfil their own interests? Do these people exist? Are they magic?

I keep promising myself that at least once a week I will sit down and do something that means something to me, something creative, something that will make me feel more fulfilled and more at peace with myself. It's not that I never have time to stop - some nights & even weekends do go by in a blur of pilates/running/bouncing on my trampoline, plus a combination of shopping/cleaning/ paying bills /phoning relative type duties - but there are those nights when I choose to slump in front of the TV instead of getting my paints out, writing something here, attempting to compose a poem....My excuse is I am too tired, and sometimes that is true. I read a blog somewhere that suggested there may be something more deep seated stopping me from taking the plunge, but to believe that would be self indulgent. I just need a good kick up the arse!

Kick up the arse number 1 - my new camera arrived today. It's a present for my 30th birthday from my lovely boyfriend Hugh, with contributions from Mum & Dad too. It's a bridge camera, a step up from my old point and shoot. I'll start experimenting with it on my hols and hopefully have some nice art for our bare wall in the lounge when I get back!

Kick number 2 - Leah from Blue Tree Art Gallery (who produces fantastic paint & collage creations, I will buy a print from her when I have a few more rooms to decorate!) runs the Art Every Day Month every November. I am about to sign up! My goal is to get the cherry blossom paintings done that I promised Hugh I would do for our living room. And have some fun with my new camera. I may add more, but I don't want to scare myself away with a to do list!

Monday 22 June 2009

Back over the canal, we've all had a long day and we're going home....

At the weekend Hugh and I ventured to Middlewich, a small canal town in Cheshire which every year hosts the Folk & Boat Festival. We successfully navigated ourselves to a sports field outside the centre which was acting as the weekend’s official campsite. It wasn’t exactly a sea of tents aka Glastonbury, but we had a clean shower block, plus in the morning the local scout troop on hand to fuel us with enormous cups of tea and bacon butties.Saturday night was spent sampling the various delights of the fringe festival. Watching ‘James and the Giant’ perform in a tiny marquee separated from the audience by a canal was slightly surreal. However the added action of narrowboats navigating the lock in front us made for a more memorable hour, JATG’s music being perfectly pleasant and including some singalong opportunities with a few well known covers (Tom Petty, REM) but they were ultimately unremarkable.

Further into town, in the White Horse, was a charming scene straight out of one of favourite movies, ‘Once’. A group of jolly, grizzled out souls belting out traditional melodies on fiddle, accordion, guitar and mandolin, with vocals randomly contributed from various family & friends sitting around them. I wish I’d know the words, the only one I could join in with was ‘Green Green Grass of Home’.

We finished the evening at the Kings Lock, in the company of Cold Flame, who played their way with panache through a bizarre combination of Celtic instrumentals that Kangaroo Moon would be proud of, and 70’s and 80’s rock covers ranging from The Animals, Bob Dylan, The Band and Del Amitri.

We whiled away Sunday morning strolling along the canal and checking out the vintage boats. Then it was time to head to the British Legion for the main event that we travelled down for….

After one of the festival organisers did a turn with her band, we were introduced to Rachel Harrington & Zac Borden who gave us a taste of southern gothic bluegrass. I was captivated, though I know very little about this sort of music except for being a big Gillian Welch fan. One review says that she is "connecting with the ghosts of American folk music" and I can’t really think of a better description. Her songs reminded me of much of the music that features in Jim White's fantastic documentary film, 'Searching for the Wrong Eyed Jesus'. We picked up her live album “In the Woods” as a souvenir, and I’ll certainly be exploring more of her music.

Andrea Glass gave us a more gentle hour of acoustic songs, her gorgeous melodies and intricate lyrics beguilingly mixed with a down to earth Bolton humour! She did a great cover of Dancing in the Dark and brought a cup of tea on stage with her – brilliant!

Then it was Thea Gilmore’s turn, opening with a captivating solo ‘Old Soul’. This girl needs zero post-production, her distinctive voice crystal clear and resonant. Then Nige & Fluff (on violin) joined her for a surprising cover – Pink’s ‘Get the Party Started’. The rest of the set went by in a whirl, including lush renditions of ‘The Lower Road’, ‘Icarus Wind’ and ‘You and Frank Sinatra’ and a biting, shiver inducing ‘This girl is taking bets’. There was a stomping ‘If you miss me at the back of the bus’ and a stirring ‘Are you Ready?’, a song about fighting for what you believe in, inspired by her friend on the eve of Obama’s victory, where all three leapt off the stage to rehearse the audience beforehand so we could then join in with the refrain ‘We will ride, are you ready?’. And we sang very beautifully, even if I do say so myself ;o)

It was a joyful and memorable afternoon. So much fun we’ve already booked to see Thea again in Chester in December, and I'm sure we'll be back at MFAB next year too!

Wednesday 20 May 2009

Happiness Is.....


..... Chasing rainbows through the sunshine and showers, to the tunes of Tori's fabulous new album.

Wednesday 13 May 2009

It's the heart that matters more

"They don't know how it feels to love some band, or some silly song, so much it hurts" - Sapphire, Almost Famous

I saw Counting Crows on Monday night, for about the eighth time. It was the first time I'd ever seen them do a full acoustic set, and it was.....incredible, transcendent, beautiful. Songs that I know like my oldest friends took on new personalities. Melodies twisted and meandered and exploded into kaleidoscopes of emotions. Adam was a storyteller, sitting at the edge of the stage or wandering across like a lost soul gesturing into a sky of stars. Spinning out tales of bittersweetness, of loving and losing, of memories and of dreams.

It was a perfect evening where time stood still and I was lost in the moment, the rest of the world ceased to exist. There was only me & a few thousand others with our senses captivated and our emotions overwhelmed.

Thursday 2 April 2009

Winter's over, be my darling

Spring is here. Emerged from my Shingles induced cocoon long enough to venture to the park, and found that one of my favourite things is happening - the blossoms are opening.



Also, a carpet of daffodils in the Spring Haze. Lovely.

So I've been forced to do virtually nothing for a week thanks to this virus. I'm sure resting has done me the world of good, but at the moment, I feel weak and lacklustre. Time to shake those feelings off, tomorrow we leave for the event of the year, the Big Three-Oh, our 30th birthday girls' holiday extravaganza in Hong Kong. Yippee. Better go and pack.....

Tuesday 10 February 2009

I get a little warm in my heart, when I think of Winter...

Nostalgia - a bittersweet yearning for things of the past, defined by a physician named Johannes Hofer. He derived it from Nostos, meaning 'return' and algos, meaning suffering, 'so that thus far it is possible from the force of the sound Nostalgia to define the sad mood originating from the desire to return to one's native land.'

"And it was home: the fact that I hadn't lived there for years didn't change that. Nowhere was my sense of belonging so unambiguous"
- The Snow Geese, William Fiennes


I went home for a week. It did me good, rested me, gave me time to reflect, remember and relax. I had fun catching up with old friends - I'm not home very often anymore but it's so good to know that when I do get to go home, and have a chance to spend time with people there I've known for a long time, our friendships pick up where they left off. No awkwardness or falseness, just affection and laughter.


Pucklechurch got about 6 inches of snow. That's nothing by many countries' standards. In England, this meant life as normal came to a standstill. This meant no buses dared to take to the streets so no mega shopping trip to the new metropolis 'Cabot Circus' for me! Instead I spent some time wandering and enjoying the crisp air and dazzliest sunshine reflecting off the snow. Much better for the soul. Remember the satisfaction of being the first feet to tread through a fresh snowfall? Joy as pure and simple as the untouched blanket of snow.


I was a small child the last time that much snow fell. I remember walking up the path which led to the school door, the snow had been cleared from it and so created a sheer wall on either side that towered above me, in my red woolly bonnet I felt like a Siberian explorer braving an ice tunnel! A friend and neighbour, Sue, rescued my brother and I from school along with her own children once the school heating system had failed. We constructed an igloo in their garden with the help of their dad, Rick, then built barricades and had a snowball war. Happy memories, but tinted with the bittersweetness of childhoods past and loved ones gone.


But snow melts, Winters thaw into the warmth of Spring. A season of hope, new life, new beginnings.

I spent the weekend with my beautiful niece, we went swimming yesterday morning then to her music class in the afternoon. Spending time with her is the most amazing thing in the world, she is curious and clever, affectionate and hilariously funny. She makes my spirit soar, and I cannot wait to find out about her every adventure.

Tuesday 13 January 2009

You've gotta learn to get a little happy along the way

A severe case of PMT the other day methinks. Plus a few other factors, bad day at work, grumpy boyfriend, miserable winter weather etc. One of my strengths is definately over-reacting. And I'm a born pessimist ;o) Two things not to mention in interviews.

Perspective is a wonderful thing, I felt like the world was going to end the other day. Part of this blog is learning to appreciate those moments where everything is perfect, to remember to be grateful and to be able to draw strength from them in the moments when you really need reminding that things ain't that bad, and always get better.

Langhorne Slim put it better than me:

Toss your misery, out the door
What are you waiting for?

You've got to learn to get a little happy, along the way

It's alright to change your
style, it's alright to smile
It's alright to get a little happy along the way


Tough day at the office,
and worse, not at home
Don't wanna talk about it,
Just wanna be left alone
There's no joy in living,

You're giving all and getting none

It's a new beginning,
you thought you lost, but honey you won.

New Years Resolution number 2: Take a deep breath and smile, or as wonderful blogger Fabulous Lorraine so perfectly put it, "Even One perfect minute a day.....Or one moment where you are completely happy, and take the time to acknowledge it and say so."

Last night my Pilates class did me the power of good, I got home feeling completely relaxed, had a candlelit bath listening to more Thea Gilmore (one of the more cheery albums though). That was pretty close to perfect, except for the bit where the PVR didn't record Masterchef, but never mind! Today I'm going to meet some old friends after work. We all worked in the same office together when I started my first job at the University. That was 7 years ago, I left the Uni 5 years ago, and we are all still good friends. It will be an evening of catching up, gossiping and laughing. That's pretty perfect. I'm lucky to have good friends. I'm happy.

Sometimes I feel it, you know how it is,
You wake up in the morning and everything f
its
I'm still hoping tomorrow feels like this
My Perfect Day
- My Perfect Day, Feeder

A particularly perfect day - view from Mt Sunday (Edoras), December 2007

Thursday 8 January 2009

It’s so easy to drift through these things with your eyes half open

I've been listening to Thea Gilmore a lot lately. She was one of those singers that I'd heard many good things about, but never quite got around to checking out. After getting into the habit of reading Neil Gaiman's blog, I noticed he would rave about her fairly frequently. She probably gets a mention most weeks. With good reason, as it turns out. I reasoned that a music recommendation from one of my favourite writers was probably worth exploring, so I started with Avalanche. A-Mazing. Thea's songs range from the soft and emotional to sharp and clever, they are full of imagery that forms vivid pictures in your mind.

I got her new record Liejacker for my birthday (thanks Mum & Dad!) and I think it's my favourite of all. Soaring and emotional and full of some of the most evocative lyrics yet. I feel weary at the moment, sad for no clear reason and Dance in New York seems to sum up how I feel perfectly.

‘Cos I want to run run run fast as I can
Let those grey gloves wrap their fingers around my heart
I want to run run run so far from here
‘Till the streets of Manhattan just tear this waster apart
No I don’t wanna talk, I wanna dance in New York'

I used to carry my passport to work every day, because I'd pass a travel agent on my way. I would daydream of walking in and buying the first flight I laid my eyes on, disappearing into the blue and feel the world I knew melting away and giving way to change. For a long time I've been settled and happy but lately, maybe it's this time of year, which I hate, I am restless again, tired of fighting to stay afloat and functioning in daily life. Tired of explaining my frustrations and getting the same promises in return. I wonder if I am just a perfectionist or if other people feel the same, if I'll ever move past them or if I'm caught in a slowly rotating cycle, where mostly my eyes are half closed and then I open them and don't like where I am - I guess this is just me and my psyche. However I don't want to make this song the soundtrack to my year. You make your own happiness and somehow I need to recapture the optimism and joie de vivre that was bubbling in me so recently. Can't be that hard can it? I suspect that a long, good nights' sleep would do me the power of good.

Tuesday 6 January 2009

Show me the ways to button up buttons...






Show me the ways to button up buttons...















That have forgotten they're buttons....















Well, we can't have that.











Coraline the movie! Can't wait. Coming to a cinema near you, very soon!